Salutations

In total honesty, the creation of this blog was very much a random action. Obviously. It's almost 3 o'clock in the morning, and I'm sitting here at my computer screen, creating a blog when I should very well be sleeping. Especially when one considers that it's finals week.

That's right. Finals week. My name is Lacuna (not really, but the necessity for anonymity will be further clarified in a second) and I'm college student at a major university. I'm studying advertising and enjoying it immensely. Some of my hobbies include academia, working out, high-fashion, looking good, politics, debate, religion, comic book collecting, etc. I feel that I'm a fairly well-rounded guy that likes many things and can cultivate relationship with a great variety of people. Coming here, I attempted the fraternity thing not once but twice before I finally decided that compromising my personal comforts and personal dignity for the approval of fat, drunken frat boys is not an extracurricular activity I enjoy partaking in. And, really, the only reason I tried to be The Frat Guy was because it seemed that that was what was expected of me. But that's another story.

You see, I tend to ramble, and there will probably be a lot of that in my blog, because I'm a very, very confused and un-anchored young man. You see, I have recently come to terms with the fact that I'm probably gay - and that, dear readers, is probably going to be one of the biggest running themes in this blog, as it's something I will, no doubt, be struggling with for a long time to come. Although I've yet to be with another man, it doesn't make things easier by any stretch of the imagination. Also of note is the fact that I come from a very religious Southern Baptist family that has taught me that these kinds of thoughts are temporary and "curable" and that this "lifestyle choice" is an immoral one that will, should I choose to partake, result in eternal damnation in hell. It's hard to shake this kind of emphasis, especially when one is very, very close to their family, as is the case in my situation.

But that's enough for the first entry. I'm sure that some of the things that I say many will find to be absolutely and completely pathetic. Some will find me to be a sad, cowardly excuse for a human being. Some may understand my plight as I trudge through this painfully difficult time in my life. I only ask that you be respectful and understanding. I'm young and inexperienced, but I'm learning... Learning to think for myself, learning to make my own opinions, and learning just exactly how to step outside of the sphere of influence of my parents...

...All while advancing my education and experiencing all the fun-filled rigors and roadblocks of university life. Oh joy! Should be a fun ride. Stay tuned, and happy reading.